CTL1 · Class 9

Taking your life force back

The idea at the heart of this classRetrieving personal energy

Retrieving personal energy On the left a seated figure, split light and dark, sits in a tall deep rose mandorla with a soft gold sun disc in its tip above the head. On the right is a round indigo picture of six facets in a gold rim, holding five round cream lights and seven small coral and lilac diamonds. Below both lies a dark violet arc of earth. First a light circles among the round lights. Then a dashed line is drawn from the picture down toward the earth and stops short; the round lights stay. Then the round lights link up, one edge at a time, into the outline of a five-pointed star, then a rose outline is drawn round them and fills pink, and the rose lifts on an arc clear above the picture with a pink streak trailing it, swells and holds, while the diamonds stay. Then the rose travels into the sun, the sun swells, light runs down from the sun into the body, and the mandorla blooms peach and rose and grows, with two leaves. Last, the picture breaks apart facet by facet and fades, the diamonds still in it.

This class’s practice

Taking your life force back from a picture

5 steps, playing in turn. Choose a number to hold one.

Make a rose for your space this past week, then look at its color, vibration, tone and texture.

CTL1 Class 9, part 1, 30:15 to 31:50

Look at the picture inside the color, notice who is there and where you are, and get a quick percentage of your life force in it.

CTL1 Class 9, part 1, 31:59 to 32:54

Treat 40 to 50 percent as the picture being about half full of your energy, not half of all your life force.

CTL1 Class 9, part 2, 28:47 to 29:08

Do not ground your own energy out of your space; pull your life force out of the picture instead.

CTL1 Class 9, part 2, 35:59 to 36:21

Use a rose to gather that life force, return it through the gold sun and body, then blow the picture.

CTL1 Class 9, part 2, 36:17 to 37:13

All 5 steps: Taking your life force back from a picture
  1. IMake a rose for your space this past week, then look at its color, vibration, tone and texture.CTL1 Class 9, part 1, 30:15 to 31:50
  2. IILook at the picture inside the color, notice who is there and where you are, and get a quick percentage of your life force in it.CTL1 Class 9, part 1, 31:59 to 32:54
  3. IIITreat 40 to 50 percent as the picture being about half full of your energy, not half of all your life force.CTL1 Class 9, part 2, 28:47 to 29:08
  4. IVDo not ground your own energy out of your space; pull your life force out of the picture instead.CTL1 Class 9, part 2, 35:59 to 36:21
  5. VUse a rose to gather that life force, return it through the gold sun and body, then blow the picture.CTL1 Class 9, part 2, 36:17 to 37:13

CTL1 Class 9, part 1, 28:06 to 33:38, and part 2, 28:03 to 38:44

Your own energy comes back to you; what is not yours is let go.Your own energy, round Other people's energy, diamonds The picture Your gold sun Shape tells your own energy from other people's; colors only tell parts apart. Shape marks what comes back and what leaves with the picture.
Your own energyComes backDrawn up out of the picture with a rose, home through your gold sun.
What is not yoursGoes with the pictureIt need not be pulled out first.

Round lights come back through the gold sun. Diamonds are not pulled out first; they leave when the picture goes.

Explore this class on the map

A picture can shape life without being true. It may express a wish, a fear, another person's expectation, a useful structure, or a habit the body trusts. This lesson teaches how to read a picture without assuming what it means, then how to take your life force back from one when it no longer serves you. Timestamp notes follow the recording.

Read what is here, including what you do not expect

Ideas hereAura and layersChakrasGoldGroundingPicturesProtection and non-resistanceRetrieving personal energyRosesSeniorityTrance as a class setting

Pictures can be sparse, dreamlike, detailed, symbolic, or nested inside other pictures. A picture may appear before a reading or before an event has an obvious meaning. Do not force it to become more complete. See what appears, name the visible details, and let the next communication come in its own time.

Dreams show the same principle in a looser form. A flying dream, an obstacle, a choice not to be afraid, or a scene that makes no ordinary sense can still communicate through picture. The logic may be strange because pictures do not speak like explanations.

Picture reading uses the earlier skills. Read color, texture, facial expression, emotional tone, movement, light, weight, and the layers inside a scene. A red hat is not only a hat. Which red? What texture? What is the person wearing it feeling? If the hat opens into another image, that is more communication about the same area.

Protection can be placed where it is needed. A rose may sit at the aura edge, a chakra, or a body part. The point is not one correct location. The point is to give the body a clear boundary where the energy is active.

Reading an upcoming event is not the same as predicting the future. A day, trip, marriage plan, job move, or next step can already have energy in the space now. Money worry, excitement, resistance, or expectation may be present before the event happens. Variables can change. Read the current energy around the event, not a fixed outcome.

Not every picture is a limitation. Some pictures are useful, even if they came from other people. A restaurant-work picture can confine a person if it is mistaken for the whole self. It can also be used consciously and enjoyed. The difference is whether the person has seniority over the picture or the picture has seniority over the person.

Long-held pictures can reach the body. Family patterns, cultural tones, environment, ancestry, and repeated roles may become familiar enough that the body trusts them. Running energy begins to uncharge them. If a stubborn reaction returns, ask who else is in the picture and where your life force is tied.

A picture can contain movement without becoming a movie. A person may walk, laugh, turn, or tap a foot inside one scene. A movie runs from scene to scene so fast that the uncomfortable communication is skipped. Slow it down. Stay with one picture long enough to see the grit.

A pleasant reading does not mean you missed the work. It may mean the target picture has not been touched yet. Anger works the same way. Anger that moves can be natural and transitional. Anger that stays fixed may be someone else's energy or an old stuck setting. Read duration, movement, and ownership.

The past-week self-picture practice is direct:

  1. Center in the head and clear the current image in front of the face.
  2. Check trance, grounding, and energy flow.
  3. Make a rose for the past week and clear stress, head pressure, and shoulder charge.
  4. Make a rose for your space this past week.
  5. Read its color, vibration, texture, quality, and emotion.
  6. Look into the color for the picture.
  7. Notice who is there, where you are, what you are doing, and how much life force is in it.
  8. Blow the picture.
  9. Reset protection, aura, lower chakras, earth and cosmic energies.
  10. Fill with gold sun.

The love-space reading corrects several common assumptions. Love is broader than romance. A picture may show a pet, food, family, a partner, self-love, no love, fear of being replaced, or an image inherited from relatives. The picture does not have to show the rose's visible color. A color's vibration can hold a picture without turning everything that color.

Logic can interrupt the reading. If you know the recipient well and an image seems impossible, return to the image. Judgment can pull the reader out of the center before the picture has communicated. A lunchbox, a dog, children, a wife and baby, or a blank love space might not mean what the reader first assumes.

A picture can be reality without being truth. A family may give a person a picture of love, gender, safety, or respectability. A partner may hold a feared replacement picture. A cultural picture may be charged by many people. The image alone does not prove desire. Ask where it came from, whether the person wants it, whether they resist it, and how much life force is in it.

Reclaiming energy is different from making everything disappear

Ideas hereAura and layersBeing and body: the two clocksChakrasCreating and destroyingGoldGroundingMock-upsNeutralityRetrieving personal energyRoses

A loveless love-space picture may point to missing reference pictures. Without any picture for hot ice cream or purple spaghetti, the body may not know how to create or receive such a thing. Pictures help creation. The work is not to destroy every picture. It is to know which pictures serve present time and which ones keep life force trapped.

Creating and destroying belong together. Closets empty, social circles change, jobs end, and old plans stop being maintained. The energetic operation is narrow: take your life force out of a picture, return it to yourself, then blow the picture. That is different from blowing up the energy that belongs in you.

Disaster can also blow a picture, but that is hard on the body. A life arranged around status, career, money, marriage, or identity may collapse through accident, loss, divorce, illness, or another outer event. The energetic practice aims to change the picture before life has to break it open from outside.

The body may resist because familiar pictures feel safer than freedom. Sleepiness, fog, body heaviness, broken communication, sudden logistics, and the wish not to meditate can appear before a change conversation or decision. The body trusts what it knows. Body-spirit communication builds enough trust to clear without forcing.

Do not keep healing what needs to be cleared. Fourth-chakra fixing can maintain a picture by trying to make it feel better. Clearing asks what picture is running, where life force sits, and what needs to be removed. Spirit is larger than the picture, but the body may need repeated communication before it believes that.

Reading other people's pictures helps because neutrality is easier when the picture is not your own. You can notice matches without being swallowed by them. You can also read wanted possibilities: a free schedule, a thriving older person, a creative worker, a body at ease. The point is not to take their picture. It is to see the configuration that makes a possibility visible.

Resistance feeds pictures. Pushing against a picture can make it larger in the aura until everything is seen through it. Fear is one form of resistance. So is proving the picture wrong. Harmful acts remain the responsibility of the person doing them. In this practice, the reader studies how fear, charge, and resistance alter perception and keep life force attached.

The fun-space reading gives a lighter target. Make a rose for fun. Read color, picture, location, expression, and life force. A person may be in the spotlight, beside the spotlight, outside the room, with friends, at a party, holding a beer, dancing, waiting, or absent. Comfort does not settle ownership. Someone else's picture in your space can feel familiar to the body.

Percentages describe the picture, not the whole person. If a picture is forty to fifty percent full of your life force, the picture is about half full of your energy. It does not mean half of all your life force is gone.

Other people may keep their pictures of you after you clear yours. Family, coworkers, and friends may still hold the old business person, caretaker, rebel, partner, or child. Their picture may no longer be in your space, but you may feel it when you are around them. Clearing your own involvement does not require everyone else to update at the same time.

Find pictures where movement stalls: career, relationship, fun, love, money, body, or creation. A reading question can name the obstacle directly. What picture am I stuck on? What picture blocks relationship? What picture keeps my life force in this job? Taking ownership of your investment is not self-blame. Blame keeps attention glued to the picture.

Your own energy is not grounded out of your space. Pull your life force out of the picture. Gather it with a rose if helpful. Return it through the gold sun and the body. Once your energy is out, you do not need to retrieve everyone else's energy before blowing the picture. Pictures can be animated by life force, but they are not alive. You are not your pictures.

A memory can lose its old charge because you have grown. That does not mean the original adventure was false or that you must refill the memory to keep it. Your energy was with you in the event. Present-time you may simply no longer fit the old picture of it.

The closing practice creates a new self-picture instead of clearing an old one:

  1. Center, ground, and clear reading partners from the space.
  2. Look around the aura for colors, movement, energy, and pictures.
  3. Choose pictures that no longer work, take life force out, and blow them.
  4. Create a new picture of yourself with body communication, movement, grounding, space, and fun.
  5. Give that picture to yourself.
  6. Charge it with gold-sun life force.
  7. Notice which old pictures this new picture replaces.
  8. Protect the space and clear the residue of practice.

Class 9 therefore teaches two opposite skills: withdrawing energy from pictures that no longer serve, and deliberately investing energy in a chosen present-time picture.

Where explanation outruns evidence

Ideas hereBeing and body: the two clocksPictures

Some passages go beyond the exercises. Ignored energy is described as seeking attention until it enters the body as illness. Inherited depression and family traits are discussed nearby. The useful practice point is narrower: look for pictures that have been held a long time, and retrieve life force from them.

The surgeon story is a picture of outer life breaking a picture: damaged hands, insurance, divorce, and a later teaching life. Its useful teaching is that a life picture can stop matching the person living inside it. It does not make disaster a requirement for change.

Family illness examples need the same boundary. A relative has their own body, choices, and life. Energetic ties can be read as part of a person's picture, but that does not turn another person's illness into proof that the person's plan caused it.

Charged public violence also needs careful reading. Pictures around race, danger, belonging, and resistance can be examined as cultural energy. That does not blame victims or families for another person's violence. Picture-reading language must not erase outer responsibility.

The same distinction applies to fear after assault or fear around social responses to sexuality. A filter can shape perception, and fear can magnify a picture in the practice. Fear is not responsible for another person's abusive action.

In everyday life. A delayed office move might show that you want a different job, not merely a better commute. Treat that as an opportunity to look at the picture. It does not mean the job has already ended or that you must resign.

Reflection. Which kind of picture is being described: desired, feared, inherited, useful, or no longer useful? What exactly is the denominator of a percentage? Does a story show a change after an event, or does it name what caused the event?

Possible answers

The image alone does not settle desire or ownership; ask for further description and context. The percentage correction concerns energy within the picture, not the person's whole supply. A sequence of events and a later interpretation can be meaningful without proving causation. Recovering agency does not mean accepting blame for illness, violence or another person's decisions.

Recording notes

C9a: Class 9 P1 Blowing Pictures.mp3

C9a-01 · 00:00:00–00:04:17 · Pictures, prediction anecdotes, dreams and physical symptoms

Participants describe sparse or dreamlike imagery, an Oscar-winner guess and pictures before readings. Recording presents dreams as creative spirit communication and labels eye/ear pain and TV intolerance as senses turning on; neither prediction nor health explanation is verified.

C9a-02 · 00:04:17–00:06:06 · Detail inside pictures and flexible protection placement

Color, texture, expression and emotional tone remain informative inside a picture; nested pictures mean more communication about that aspect. Protection roses may be placed near chakras, aura or body parts.

C9a-03 · 00:06:08–00:09:07 · Near-future energy versus prediction

The recording says it will not teach prediction. Reading an upcoming day/week or a trip concerns present energy around it; time horizon is not a hard line, variables change, and even distant events can have current aspects.

C9a-04 · 00:09:09–00:12:08 · Useful pictures and participant uncertainty about the model

Participant challenges emphasis on limiting pictures; recording explicitly permits useful received pictures. Another wonders whether this is subtle self-manipulation or metaphysical truth; peer support is offered, not an adjudication.

C9a-05 · 00:12:08–00:18:12 · Inherited conditions, disease claim and uncharging

Recording broadens 'body as effect' through ancestry, environment and aura/atmosphere analogy, then claims ignored energy becomes disease/tumor. Participant raises inherited depression; running energy is said to reclaim energy from pictures. The health mechanism remains unsupported.

C9a-06 · 00:18:12–00:21:56 · Unrecognized matches and delayed recognition

After incidental classroom talk, participant reports stomach sensation without emotion and a later recognizable relationship issue. Recording posits unconscious pictures and delayed recognition. Partial image destruction is reported; no independent causal evidence follows.

C9a-07 · 00:21:57–00:23:32 · Movement within a picture versus avoidance through a movie

Participant challenges static-picture wording. Recording allows activity within one setting, but asks readers to slow a sequence because moving on can gloss over an uncomfortable subject or match recipient avoidance.

C9a-08 · 00:23:33–00:27:51 · No distress, crown shade, persistent anger and dance logistics

Participant with pleasant experience is told not doing it wrong; recording says target picture not yet reached. Initial perceived color sets half-shade-lighter crown; anger is called natural/transitional but prolonged anger attributed to someone else's stuck energy, with a participant challenge. Dance-event discussion follows.

C9a-09 · 00:27:51–00:34:41 · Past-week self-picture and fill before reading

Guided setup says pictures do not equal truth as a rule, clears week, reads own week's color/picture and life-force percentage, blows image, resets protection/chakras/flow and fills with gold sun, breathing and return.

C9a-10 · 00:34:41–00:38:35 · Color need not appear literally; broad-love reading setup

A color's vibration may hold pictures without that visible color. Partner target is broad love, not only romance; roses may yield self, pet, food or partner pictures. Read neutrally whether pleasant or confusing.

C9a-11 · 00:38:52–00:40:54 · Overlapping love readings

Fragmentary concurrent peer imagery includes dog, children and romance; precise full readings and speaker assignments remain unresolved, not treated as verified information.

C9a-12 · 00:40:56–00:48:21 · Logic, heteronormative expectation, feared outcomes and plural viewpoints

Participant nearly rejects lunchbox image due to knowing recipient. Recording's personal wife/baby picture illustrates imposed reality versus truth for a gay man. A partner's replacement fear and differing side-chair pictures show image need not mean desire or prediction; useful received pictures remain possible.

C9a-13 · 00:48:21–00:50:45 · Trayvon Martin example and unresolved causal challenge; break

Recording attributes killing to charged cultural pictures and resistance, including family resistance; participants ask whether stereotypes in other people's minds explain it and how parental resistance matters. Answer repeats energetic claim without establishing cause. Victim/family blame is not adopted; ends with break logistics.

C9b: Class 9 P2 Blowing Pictures.mp3

C9b-01 · 00:00:00–00:03:45 · Loveless love-space report and permission to destroy

Participant rejects love reading as containing no loved things; recording interprets this as everyday lack of love. Hot ice cream/purple spaghetti illustrate needing reference pictures, then ordinary clearing-out analogies support create/destroy rather than maintain everything.

C9b-02 · 00:03:46–00:09:17 · Surgeon story and energetic versus disastrous change

Recording recounts surgeon whose accident/insurance/divorce enabled new life, then contrasts energetic picture destruction with life disasters and says it may prevent bodily upheaval. Change still requires rerouting energy; story and prevention mechanism are not compared.

C9b-03 · 00:09:18–00:14:33 · Resistance, relative's illness and direct participant challenge

C9b-04 · 00:14:33–00:18:15 · Body/spirit trust and workplace anger

hearing and body/spirit relationship are said to build trust beyond familiar pictures. Participant's delayed workplace move brings shaking/stomach knots and desire to leave; recording calls it opportunity to blow a picture, not proof it already happened.

C9b-05 · 00:18:15–00:21:42 · Why read others and learn useful possibilities

Neutrality about another may reveal one's matches. Circus performer and thriving elder illustrate learning configurations one wants, not taking their pictures. Ownership need not be settled when the purpose is learning what a possibility looks like.

C9b-06 · 00:21:42–00:25:34 · Resistance as magnification and fear discussion

resistance enlarges a picture/filter. Examples concern harm, anti-gay conduct and fear; participant mentions closeting/social response and sexual assault. These are attributed claims, not grounds for blaming fear or resistance for violence.

C9b-07 · 00:25:35–00:28:03 · Fun-space reading and sparse peer record

Timed groups read fun space; fragmentary beer/friends imagery and brief debrief remain. No invented full exercise dialogue or omitted silent duration is reconstructed.

C9b-08 · 00:28:03–00:31:29 · Percentage denominator and social certainty

Recording corrects 40–50% to share of a picture filled with one's energy, not share of one's total life force. Others retain their pictures after one clears one's own, with social pressure and certainty around identity.

C9b-09 · 00:31:29–00:35:59 · Find pictures at hurdles; fun spotlight and supportive-giving story

Taking ownership is distinguished from self-blame. Ask where movement stalls or ask a reader. Foster-child giving story is recording's interpretation, not general truth about abuse survivors. Party example suggests comfort beside spotlight may involve another's picture.

C9b-10 · 00:35:59–00:38:47 · Retrieval is not grounding away own energy; memory potency question

Own energy is pulled from picture and returned through rose/gold sun/body, not released out of own space by grounding. Once own energy is out, picture may be blown without retrieving others' energy. Recording explains changing remembered excitement as growth rather than refillable fixed potency.

C9b-11 · 00:38:47–00:43:55 · Closing self-picture deliberately charged

Ground/clear partners, notice aura, create self-picture including body communication/movement/fun/space, place it where wanted, charge with gold sun, clear class residue, protect and return. Deliberate energizing differs from destroying an unwanted picture.

C9b-12 · 00:43:56–00:45:28 · Weekend and skills-check logistics

Historical weekend times/locations/dates are tentative and corrected in speech; recording promises posts and reminders. Skills checks are requested. These are not current schedules.

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