CTL2 · Class 12

Karma, gold and forgiveness of self

The idea at the heart of this classGold

Gold A seated figure, split light and dark, sits on a deep indigo vertical band over a low green mound of earth, inside a fine lilac circle, its own space. Above its head is a rayed gold sun. First the sun lights and gold fills the body from the feet upward like tea filling a cup, its surface swelling gently. Then a pink rose beside the figure is grounded by a green stem to the earth, and its heart fills with gold from the same sun while the rose stays pink. Then a tight dark knot appears in the figure's own space with a ring of rose gold beside it, and the knot stays as it is. Then a light goes from the figure's heart to the ring, the ring settles round the knot, and the knot loosens and turns, still dark inside the ring. Last, a soft pale gold sheet of light enters at the crown, sweeps down through the body and the panel and fades into the ground, its name beside the panel; the body keeps its own gold; it comes again and again and never stays. clearing gold your own sun forgiveness

This class’s practice

Raising havingness for self-forgiveness

5 steps, playing in turn. Choose a number to hold one.

Ground with a fresh cord, run neutral earth and cosmic flow, and look at the seven layers of your aura as lives being cultivated.

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Create a gauge for having self-forgiveness and note its percentage. Forgiveness is not about right or wrong.

CTL2 Class 12, class recording, 1:20:40 to 1:32:00

Beside the gauge, make a rose, look at its colors, and ground it to release other energies as havingness rises.

CTL2 Class 12, class recording, 1:20:40 to 1:32:00

Set the crown to a higher gold and do not rush: a gauge reaching 100 may change tomorrow or tonight.

CTL2 Class 12, class recording, 1:20:40 to 1:32:00

Let the gold sun fill the layers, body and chakras; renew protection and return.

CTL2 Class 12, class recording, 1:20:40 to 1:32:00

All 5 steps: Raising havingness for self-forgiveness
  1. IGround with a fresh cord, run neutral earth and cosmic flow, and look at the seven layers of your aura as lives being cultivated.CTL2 Class 12, class recording, 1:20:40 to 1:32:00
  2. IICreate a gauge for having self-forgiveness and note its percentage. Forgiveness is not about right or wrong.CTL2 Class 12, class recording, 1:20:40 to 1:32:00
  3. IIIBeside the gauge, make a rose, look at its colors, and ground it to release other energies as havingness rises.CTL2 Class 12, class recording, 1:20:40 to 1:32:00
  4. IVSet the crown to a higher gold and do not rush: a gauge reaching 100 may change tomorrow or tonight.CTL2 Class 12, class recording, 1:20:40 to 1:32:00
  5. VLet the gold sun fill the layers, body and chakras; renew protection and return.CTL2 Class 12, class recording, 1:20:40 to 1:32:00

CTL2 Class 12, class recording, 1:20:40 to 1:32:00

Three golds, told apart by where they come from: your own sun, neutral clearing gold and gold as forgiveness.Your own sun: solid, rayed Forgiveness gold: rose gold, round the knot in your own space Clearing gold: pale, it passes and goes The three golds are told apart by where they come from and by tint. The tints only tell them apart; they are not the colors gold must be.
Your own sunFills youSolid, from above your head, filled with your own life force.
Clearing goldNeed not stayA pale sheet of light that passes through and leaves your space as it was.

Each gold is identified by source, target and purpose; no gold move is an automatic release from karma.

Gold is forgiveness here: it clears pain, neutralizes resistance and lets a person step out of karmic games by choice, starting with self-forgiveness.

Other people's pictures and the body that receives them

Ideas hereAura and layersChakrasEarth and cosmic energyGoldGroundingGrowth periodsHelloPicturesRosesSeniorityTrance as a class setting

Start by putting the crown at light gold and turning the lower three chakras down for trance. Create and destroy roses until the screen is available. If roses are hard to blow, run more earth and cosmic energy first. The work begins with the body calm enough to let other people's pictures be seen without becoming senior.

Notice the attention points on you. Some come from family, coworkers, friends, people you have read, classmates, people from years ago and people who think they know what you are doing. Count them. Then spray the aura with your own life force, all 360 degrees, the way a pan is coated before cooking or a wall before graffiti. This gives the body a direct hello that the space belongs to you.

Separate from the growth period. You may be in it, but you are not it, and it is not senior to you. Then make roses for the pictures other people hold of you. Put out one for the closest person in your life, one for work people or a boss, and one for family. Ask whether you have amusement with each picture. If a picture turns the space serious, check how it affects seniority, food, sleep, morning lightness and the ease of continuing to change.

Those pictures may be real to the people holding them, but they are not who you are. Create a rose for who you are today. Ground it. Run neutral gold through it. Hand it to yourself. Then destroy the other roses completely. This is the first forgiveness movement: other people's pictures can be seen, cleared and replaced with a present-time picture made from your own space.

The chakra clearing then moves from crown to root. For each chakra, mock it up on the screen, ground it, spin it, cut cords and refill it with your gold life force. The seventh sets the tone for the other chakras. The sixth may have people trying to see through you or may avoid fullness because clairvoyance has had strong effects before. The fifth holds expression, receiving and giving communication. The fourth can hold the biggest cords, especially where getting into your space has felt like a battle. The third may feel harder because looking at yourself is different from reading someone else. The second may have old familiar cords, and familiar does not mean right. The first is grounded often, but grounding it is not the same as seeing it. After the first chakra is seen and cleared, create a brand-new space, ground it, fill with gold sun, renew protection and return.

Why pain and belonging enter the karma discussion

Ideas hereGoldMock-ups

The body is a vehicle for the being's life force. Dreams, desires, wishes and mock-ups are not separate from your energy. The body is made to carry the experiences that life force creates. Friction begins when outside influence enters the mix and turns desire into effort, uncertainty and traffic.

Pain can make the body dense. A young child may be bright with enthusiasm, then much dimmer years later after collecting painful experiences. Pain also becomes social glue. People may bond through being outcasts, broke, lonely, excluded or harmed in similar ways. A family, friend group or chosen family can recognize each other through shared pain.

If the bond depends on pain, clearing your own pain may feel like disloyalty. You may know how to move energy and still keep the pain because someone else cannot have the change. If that happens, look for the loyalty picture. Notice the cords to the people who need you to stay in the old vibration. The question is not whether you love them. The question is whether you are committing to yourself or carrying their energy as identity.

Karma is introduced as unresolved action or desire. A rough history is offered: first people took what they wanted by force, then eye for an eye limited retaliation, then karma named the repercussions of past actions being handled now. Family energy, cultural energy and chosen-family energy can all be treated as self. When that happens, their karma may be handled in your space as if it were yours.

Gold as forgiveness, and the metaphysical history offered for it

Ideas hereAura and layersChakrasColor: a detail in a situationEarth and cosmic energyGoldMock-upsNeutralityRoses

Ground the physical room and put a bubble around it. Run light earth and cosmic energy. Find the color of neutrality. Let nonjudgment include both the energy inside the aura and the energy outside it. Set the crown to vibrant gold and create and destroy roses while the room stays protected.

Gold is forgiveness here. It clears pain, neutralizes resistance and lets the being step outside a karmic game long enough to see it. Every color below gold is described as a karmic game. Gold does not erase the game. It changes your position in relation to it.

A metaphysical history is offered to explain why gold matters. Beings have taken bodies for many lifetimes. Bodies became dense and karmic cycles repeated. Group mock-ups then brought forth beings able to run gold in the body. Christ and Buddha are named as examples of beings associated with forgiveness, apart from religious framing.

Use the body to compare where gold runs. Run gold through the hand chakras. Run it through the left back channel and compare it to the right. Run gold through one room at home and notice how that room differs from the others. Then look at where you use gold in life and where you resist using it. The comparison teaches by contrast: when gold runs, the space changes.

Before opening the eyes, set the consideration that you will keep your space afterward. The return is part of the practice. Gold does not belong only in closed-eye meditation.

The questions prevent a promise of automatic or permanent escape

Ideas hereHavingnessMock-upsNeutralityPast lives and the gold ring

If running gold breaks karmic cycles, the answer is: it can, but it does not happen automatically. Gold gives the option. Karma is unresolved action or desire. Some karma is from past lives. Much of it is born into a family, race, ethnicity, gender or group field. That means karma can involve you without being a reflection of your own energy as a being.

If karma feels personal because someone harmed you or you harmed someone, look wider. A body can be born into family karma before it has made any personal choice in that body. A person can be involved in a karmic experience without that experience being a clean mirror of their own vibration. That is why the practice keeps returning to neutrality and gold.

Karma is not treated as fair. Fairness can be a picture that gives everyone the same thing because sameness feels safer. But different beings have different vibrations and different havingness. Giving the same amount to two different children may cap the havingness of the one who can have more. If fairness pictures light up, read them as pictures. They may come from family, culture or old rules, not from present-time truth.

Prebirth agreements can include taking on another person's karma. Leaving such a role may feel like death. Use the gang or Mafia image: the picture says the only way out is to be killed. In this work, the body does not have to die. The picture of who others thought you were is what dies.

Growth can happen through karma without gold. It may not happen at the pace you want or in the games you want to play. Karma is part of the planetary game, not the only option. Living outside karma all the time is a perfect picture. Choice is more useful: enter, leave, notice when a game has become too much and step out again.

Leave room for surprises. If everything is planned too tightly, a miracle may be rejected because it does not match the plan. Mock-ups need space. A million dollars arriving in an unexpected way still needs room to arrive.

Forgiveness concerns movement in one's own space

Ideas hereGoldRoses

The first step is to get the energy to gold and forgive yourself. Forgiveness begins in your own space. It is not mainly a declaration about another person. It is movement where shame, fear, nonmovement or an old public picture has kept energy stuck.

The image of crucifixion is used for the death of a public picture. If everything comes out, the old fear says life will be over. Then the exposure happens and the person is free to live from a new vibration. The public may be only the people who held that picture of you. The key is that their version of you no longer runs your life.

If fear of exposure lights up, look for the picture being protected. Who needed that version of you to stay relevant? What did you sacrifice to uphold it? Forgiveness does not mean calling yourself bad or promising to improve. It means running gold through the stuck place so movement becomes possible again.

Gold can be applied to body and relationship pictures. Mock up an organ that is carrying difficulty and run gold through it. Mock up a heart picture in a family line and run gold. Create a rose for a relationship and run gold over and over. The aim is not blame. The aim is change, because energy at gold cannot stay exactly the same.

If shame has kept you away from reading time, communication or practice, run forgiveness for that nonmovement. Do not wait until you deserve to return. The return itself is movement. Forgiveness gives the space to reenter without making the stuckness into an identity.

Raise havingness without rushing the process

Ideas hereAura and layersChakrasEarth and cosmic energyGoldGroundingHavingnessRoses

Create a fresh grounding cord and run neutral earth and cosmic energy. On the screen, see the seven layers of the aura as seven lives, possibilities or kinds of life you are cultivating. Notice where your energy is in those layers and where other people's pictures have been growing.

Create a gauge for havingness for self-forgiveness. This is not about right or wrong. Put a rose beside the gauge and read the colors and vibrations of the percentage shown. Ground the rose. Let other energies release as the havingness rises.

Wanting and having are different. You may crave self-forgiveness and still not be able to have it yet. Sometimes the people around you cannot have you forgiving yourself, changing and becoming less available to the old game. Release their energy from the rose rather than lowering your havingness to keep them comfortable.

Set the seventh chakra to a higher gold and let the body line up to it. Do not rush. This shift changes awareness, body communication and possibility. When the gauge reaches 100, read the new vibration. It may change tomorrow or later the same night. Fill the aura layers, body, chakras and channels with gold sun life force. Renew protection and return.

Supplement: an expanded rationale and its stronger claims

Ideas hereAura and layersGold

The supplement gives a longer history. About 25,000 years ago, bodies are said to have become less capable with each generation. At night, beings could leave the body and have expansive astral experiences. In the morning, less and less of that wonder could fit back into the dense body. Some family groups are described as still caught in that density.

In present conflict, the surprising move is forgiveness. If a professional or personal relationship has tension, you can attack, pretend nothing is there or run forgiveness. Set the crown at gold and forgive yourself for frailty, indecision, fear, reaction and uncertainty. When those traits are forgiven in yourself, they are less charged when seen in others.

Gold is compared to middle C on a piano. Below it are earth tones. Above it are vibrations too high for the body. Gold is the highest vibration that still works in the body. Shame is described as a cover over what is most interesting in a person. Gold clears the shame and the karma below it.

The supplement makes a strong claim: several years of gold work can clear the karma chosen for a lifetime. Then another question appears. What do you want when other people's energy is no longer defining the answer? You may want creation, a lifestyle, deeper intimacy with yourself or intimacy with another. Not everything fits into one life, so choice matters.

Group karma is named through examples of peoples and histories, migration dreams, bad luck and money struggle. The instruction is not to do more and go into more effort. The first step is to get it gold and forgive self.

When the body feels intolerable, people may leave through smoking, drinking, drugs, work or relationships. This practice moves in the opposite direction. It cultivates a body and aura that are inviting enough to inhabit. Caring for others can be good. Owning and caring for yourself is the extraordinary move.

Supplement: forgiveness through seven chakras, then replenish

Ideas hereAura and layersChakrasEarth and cosmic energyGoldGroundingRoses

Begin at gold, grounded, running earth and cosmic energy, with attention in the center of the head. Make a rose for yourself in this moment. See the healthy and unhealthy parts, the light and dark, the inconsistencies and imperfections. Run gold through the rose for mistakes, pain and transgressions of the week. If you want to leave the center of the head, notice that urge and stay. Let the body release, then blow the rose.

Renew the grounding cord. See grounding and gold sun together on the screen. Releasing and replenishing are a dichotomy. Earth and cosmic energy mix through you. The center of the head is one chosen point among many points in the aura. At gold, you step out of karma. The games do not end, but you are not playing them in that moment.

Run gold down the back channels into the first chakra. In the first, forgive around safety and survival. Move the gold into the second chakra for sexuality, desire and sensual experience. Move it into the third for will, power, the body, male energy and female energy. If yawning, tears, stretching or emotion appear, let them be energy moving.

Move gold into the fourth chakra for affinity, connection, oneness, community and the desire to be with others. Move it into the fifth for voice, loudness, silence, truth, not knowing what to say and having a lot to say. Move it into the sixth for seeing, not seeing, leaving the center of the head, being in charge, not being in charge and owning clairvoyance.

Finally, move gold into the seventh chakra. See a spinning bowl full of gold, overflowing. Forgive being itself: mocking up the lifetime, the obstacles, the successes, the greatness, the potential, the ability to forgive, the sensitivity and the compassion. This is what stepping out of karmic games looks like. It gives space without erasing the games.

Set protection roses and experience stillness within movement. Bring the gold sun closer. Fill every place that changed with personal life force. Fill the aura, the body, every layer, every quadrant and every chakra. Neutral gold clears and forgives. Personal gold fills the space with you. The miracle is not outside your space. It happens in the space you own.

Recording notes

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Recordings

  • CTL2_12_Class_KarmaAndGold.mp3
  • CTL2_12_Spmt_GoldForgivenessKarma.mp3 (supplement)

The times show where each part of this lesson comes from in the class recording. Each recording file starts at 0:00.

Where each section comes from

Practice scope and return

Each guided practice is listed below. Do it whole, from the preparation through the return.

  • guided observation with teaching: CTL2_12_Class_KarmaAndGold.mp3, 00:46:23.974 to 00:59:37.388. Do it whole, from room protection through the return. The commentary belongs to the practice
  • guided havingness and replenishment: CTL2_12_Class_KarmaAndGold.mp3, 01:20:40.404 to 01:31:38.009. Do it whole, from fresh grounding through the return
  • guided forgiveness exercise: CTL2_12_Spmt_GoldForgivenessKarma.mp3, 00:10:52.893 to 00:37:25.159. Use prior grounding, running-energy and screen skills. Do it whole, from the preparation through the return

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