Memory banks, the runner and the value of a life

Begin by quieting what is outside the aura and turning up what is inside it. Energies, emotions and thoughts in your space may have been silenced, numbed, ignored or covered by unconsciousness. Trance lets you see them from a non-reactive setting. The point is not perfection. The point is being in.

With the crown at gold, notice energy in the body that is not yours. Some of it may have been present for a long time, and some may have been picked up recently. Keep the body engaged with breath, grounding and energy flow while attention stays in the center of the head. The upper chakras carry the accent, while the lower chakras are minimally open.

On the screen, look at yourself grounded, running energy and sitting in the center of the head. If you can see yourself in the center of the head, you are there. Update the center of the head into present time. Then look just behind and below it to review the map used for this work.

Directly behind the center of the head is the picture-making machine, where pictures form. Slightly behind and below the center of the head is the analyzer. Directly below the analyzer is the genetic entity. On either side of the brain cortex are two long, rectangular memory banks.

The memory banks hold pictures of this lifetime only. They are not the Akashic records. They hold the life experiences this body and this life have gone through, filed like slides or boxes of photographs. Their apparent size does not limit them. They are vast.

Memory banks can be invaded or damaged like any other part of spiritual anatomy. Foreign energy in them can block access to memories. Damage may show as corners, planes, dark areas, missing spaces or compacted regions. Body signs may appear while looking: a faster heart, sweaty palms, thrill, taboo, odd sensations or emotion. Ground the body and keep looking from the screen.

Run neutral universal gold lightly through both banks as a scan. Then give each bank a gentle grounding cord. There is nothing to solve. Sift, notice and let energy move. Afterward, place a gold sun above the banks and fill just the memory banks with your own life force. Then move the sun aside and continue.

A being cannot spend all day manually searching memory while also living in present time. A small portion of you is dedicated to retrieving memories. This part is called the runner. It may have a form, but it is not a foreign being, an outside entity or something invited into the space. It is a section of you.

Say hello to the runner and notice its response. Ask whether it wants a healing. Ground it and run neutral gold through it. The energy may clear quickly. Then say hello to the God of your heart, the unique personal connection you have with Supreme Being, and let that connection give the runner a healing. When complete, disconnect the runner from that healing connection.

The runner knows where the damage is in the memory banks. Let it point out the damaged, whacked, missing, black or resistant places. Use neutral gold to clear invalidation and whacks in the structure of the banks. Body sensations and emotions may unlock as the damage clears. Use grounding, roses, patience and forgiveness with self if the body wants to jump out of meditation.

When the structure has been healed enough, thank the runner. Put everything you are looking at into a rose and blow it up. Let body and space adjust, re-identify with the physical body and fill everywhere with gold-sun life force. The first look at the banks is a celebration of self-healing and of being present in a life now.

Being more spiritually developed does not mean escaping earth to be with angels. You already are a spiritual being. The physical body enhances spirit by giving it experience. Being born, growing up, surviving hard ages, laughing, fearing, loving and choosing all give the being a rich palette to grow from.

When your energy is disengaged from the body, life experiences are less reflective of you. When you move back in, even simple experiences can become rich because your energy is present in them.

Three memory stores are distinguished. The memory banks hold the memories of this body and this current life. The Akashic records are a backup of the being's experiences. The second ring of a chakra holds memories within that chakra itself. The memory banks are about the life being lived now.

Many memories do not feel marvelous because foreign energy overshadows them. Pain, invalidation or another person's energy can cover the experience of the being. Clearing that extra energy does not deny the harm or rewrite the event. It restores access to the memory without the foreign weight.

Return to trance and mock up the memory banks. The memories are stacked pictures, horizontally or vertically. Some pictures can be stuck together with other people's pain. The runner retrieves the picture so you can stay in the center of the head.

Begin with an ordinary picture: the living room. Every life-experience picture has a flaw or inaccuracy because pictures are made through human experience. Ground the picture and lightly run gold through it. When the energy clears, hand the memory back to the runner and have it filed.

Next, ask the runner for a picture from your seventh birthday. It may be a party or an ordinary day. If there is too much energy to see, ground it and run gold through until some detail or motion appears. Then hand it back and let the runner refile it.

Then ask for the picture with the most blockage. It may be covered in dark energy. Ground the picture and drain off whoever's energy is caught there. The dark energy is described as someone else's physical, emotional or spiritual pain. It is not your energy. Run neutral gold through it. Do not charge the picture.

If you hit a stop, resistance, pain or effort, notice whether you moved out of the center of the head and into the screen or picture. You do not need to be in the banks. The runner is there. Neutrality is the key because the picture is full of invasive foreign energy.

When enough energy clears, the picture may not be as large as the blockage made it seem. Someone else's jealousy, need, fear or pain may have clogged the memory. Once the picture is visible, hand it back to the runner and watch the banks open. Energy may release in the leg, sinuses, chest, shoulders or hips. The memory is not erased. The foreign pain preventing access is cleared.

Ask for the next blocked picture and repeat the work. Ground it. Drain other people's pain. Run gold through it. You may have believed your own energy blocked the memory, but your energy does not block you. Someone else's energy may have done it with good intentions, but you do not need to solve it. You can clear it.

Working clairvoyantly from the sixth chakra lets you see a picture without reliving or feeling everything from the event. The body does not need to go through the whole experience again. If effort, pain or analysis appears, return to the center of the head.

When the picture clears enough, hand it to the runner to refile. Notice the shift in the banks and in the body. Fill with gold-sun energy as a celebration of life experience, movement and self-healing. Thank the runner. Fill both memory banks with life force. Notice how clearing energy from the past changes future pictures, then say hello to a new level of communication with the body.

Life experiences teach through meaning. Falling in love, falling out of love and later loving differently show how one experience becomes knowledge for the next. This is why experiences are kept in the memory banks. You do not want to erase your life.

Some teachings tell people to erase old memories, karma or negativity in order to become pure light. The instruction here is different. Do not erase yourself. Clear invalidation and pain collected on experiences. Keep the frailty, desire, struggle, story and imperfect humanity that make you unique.

What looks wrong with you may be the shadow of a gift. The part that wants, feels vain, desires, struggles or never feels satisfied is not the part to delete. It is the part to heal and keep because it understands kindness and gentleness.

Scary, painful or traumatic memories may need a different operation. Look clairvoyantly for spiders, snakes, controls, beings or entities involved in the experience. They can come through other people or through you, but that is different from being you. Clear the beings or controls and keep the memory.

A movie-like memory is still a series of pictures. A few core pictures may clear a much larger set. You do not have to process every picture of your life, and you do not have to re-experience the events.

For trauma and abuse, one charged pattern is the victim feeling sorry for the perpetrator, trying to heal the abuser, attacker or rapist, or being sensitive to them. Light up that energy with neutrality and move out the invalidation and pain. This may be done purely at the level of color and gold.

Handling an experience and deserving it are completely different. If it has been your life experience, you handled it or may still be handling it. That does not mean it was deserved. You do not have to keep handling everyone else's pain on top of it.

Trusting yourself as a being may need repair because that trust may have been hit in the past. Clearing memory-bank pain opens the ability to be in the body and use the body's abilities. More of you in the body makes the body less owned by past pain and more available for the life you choose.

If a part of you feels missing after a hard experience, the Akashic records can be used to find it and bring it back. The goal is a body that is a celebration and a place of movement, not a graveyard of past experiences.

Before sending attention through the physical body, clear the stimulation from the preceding teaching with a rose. Reground, set trance, run light nourishing earth energy and refreshing cosmic energy, and keep the aura ample. Tune down the lower three chakras. Clear the screen.

Look at the body from the screen and notice what is shut down: joints, blood flow, organs, muscles and bones. Clear commands to open the lower chakras. During readings, a lower chakra may blow open even after being set. Blow a rose, return to trance and proceed.

Notice who has been in your head and whether that blew open lower chakras. Put those people's energies into roses, move them out of the space and blow them up. Update protection. Bring amusement into the center of the head, set the crown to gold, and increase earth and cosmic flow. Then begin the body visit.

Most attention stays in the center of the head. About ten percent drifts into the body, beginning with the left leg and left foot. Place attention in the left big toe, notice the energy there, ground the toe to the center of the earth, drain foreign energy and fill it with a small gold sun. Then repeat with the left pinky toe and left heel.

Ground the entire left foot and fill the physical foot itself. Try blowing a rose while attention is in the foot and notice the difference. Then place attention in the lower left leg, drain through the foot grounding and refill with gold. Move to the upper left leg and hip. Notice invalidation, a being or foreign energy with amusement. Ground and refill the whole leg until it registers as yours.

Repeat on the right side: big toe, heel, pinky toe, whole foot, lower leg, upper leg. Each location receives attention, grounding, release and gold refill. Gold may change color after entering the body, and that is fine. Energy in the body may be work, family, past, loneliness, boredom or something unnamed. It does not need an exact label. It is simply not yours.

A body that has not been supplied with your energy will grab energy from wherever it can. This level of physical-body ownership is placed after meditation class and level one because it can be intense. It is not a beginner shortcut.

Hips and lower back receive a wide reinforcing grounding attached to the physical body. This is additional to the main first-chakra grounding, not a replacement for it. Drain the energy held there and refill with a local gold sun. Then work through the tummy and vital-organ area, grounding invalidation, negativity and judgment and filling with life force.

Continue through back, ribcage, lungs and shoulders. Ground the arms, fingertips, hands, palms and wrists with cords from each hand. Add cords from the back and chest. The gold sun stays close so each region is replenished immediately after release.

This is not self-improvement or life-fixing. The aim is that your energy becomes the effect in the body. Move through neck, throat, back of head, brain, face, eyes, ears, nose and mouth. Ground each region and fill directly from the front and back with your life force.

Then return all attention to the center of the head. Own the whole physical body from that center. The body is described as the greatest creation the being will make. Bring grounding into present time, let life force fill the aura, look at yourself owning the body, and replace old protection roses with ones that match what you now see.

After the practice, notice what changed. It is not unusual for a person to be partly in the body and partly off doing other things. If you feel invalidated by being only partly in, remember that even a small increase can make experience richer and interactions clearer.

This whole-body ownership practice is useful every few months. A shorter point-by-point version can be used daily, not as effort and not as a should, but because it is your life. Energy invested outside yourself can make problems huge. Energy returned to the body lets you choose your response.

A care provider may need more care than other people understand. Giving to yourself may be necessary. Mockups can only find you when your energy is in your space enough to see them and be seen by them. Making your life your life is different from seeking success. Success may or may not bring fulfillment. Fulfillment comes from putting the pieces together, including access to your memories.